mykind0fperfect

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-08-27T02:24:00

2006-08-27T06:26:59Z

So i went to main yesterday and i saw tiago wow man i never go anymore and neither does he but the day we go we see each other w/e it was ackward then we went into a corner and i said doesnt this look familiar and hes said no and i said well not this corner and he laffed then everyone came over to us so we decided to go somewhere else and we talked for about 35 min and i told him lots of stuff and then my freinds called telling me wtf to hurry up so he gave me his number im really glad i got to talk to him i missed him so much hopefully i talk to him sooner then later <3

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-08-23T14:24:00

2006-08-23T18:28:05Z

Hm Daily schedule wake up, shower, leave for skewl come home do chores and then nite skewl w00t well only on mon and wed so ive been hanging out alot with my friends now Bryan broke up with me but that ok cause were still friends ^.^ anywho life could be better we'll see what happens lates

what to do?

2006-08-12T15:12:03Z

i Wish i had a penny for everytime u lied...

Ctrl - Alt - Delete

2006-08-10T20:20:52Z

I wish i had a Delete button

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-08-05T23:58:00

2006-08-06T03:59:48Z

Coudlnt be happier, I love u cheeseball...hope to see u in another life time <3

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-08-01T19:12:00

2006-08-01T23:16:09Z

im tired of all the lies and ur sweet words
I wanna be seen as a person not just a sex object, and thats what u make me feel like
A sex object
Its like No is not enuff for u maybe u should look up the word "Control"
Cause obviously u dont noe what it is
Look im not like ur other "Girlfriends" maybe uve already seen that maybe u havent im not saying im any better or any worse im just saying im not them
You make me happy but at the same time i wanna run away its difficult idk sometimes
"I love you"
Pretty sure thats over rated by now and maybe im sick and tired of that phrase
Love has lost its meaning... what ever happened to hey i like u ALOT pretty sure i sorta rushed things yeah thats obvious but can u rush something u cant control?
I hate "loving" u but i hate not "loving" u
slowly ur changin me maybe for the better maybe not
I cant keep changing to make ppl happy im not "Me" anymore i forgot who i really am a long time ago
I could say "i dont care what people think" but in the end if i didnt i wouldnt have lost myself long ago
Who knows if in the end ull just be another story in my book or an epic tale

Yesterday i went to The Falls some kewl mall by ionno where but its hella far away i went with Bryan to go return his mighty mouse and after we went to go eat at johnny rockets but the whole time i was annoyed by everything and he wasnt being very nice well its not that he wasnt just i wasnt taking his jokes as lightly as i should anywho we were walking back to the car and i had to spit and offcourse he made a face and i said hey i spit like a man but i didnt this time and he said maybe u shouldnt spit at all and then i said i should stop be who i am altogether and he said now ur catching on...man i wanted to kick him in the face and at the same time ball up and cry but he sorta made me stronger like i dont cry anymore sorta but yeah so i took it bad what he said cause shit u dont say that and we were in the car and he asked what was wrong and i told him that comment wasnt necessary and he said he was j/k as usual and i said yeah w/e we argued for a bit and he broke up with me then he said no he didnt mean the breakin up thing in the same minute like wtf but them im the psychotic one rite rofl anywho we went to his house and as usual i pwned him at guitar hero hahaha no j/k i suck at that game sorta oh well today was an interesting day im sure more days like this will come and eventually ima end up kicking him in the face or him throwing me off a cliff but he we "Lourve" each other...

Today i went with my mommy to the gym and walmart and then the mall well when we got to the mall it was agreed that i had to buy clothes and as usual i went to the boys section but then i thought how bryan wanted me to dress more girly so i said fine so i bought 610 worth of clothes and matching shoes and belts and blah blah hella gay buy w/e i wanted to so he can be happy and be proud of who he is with so w/e i get home and as i start taking off the price tags of the stuff i call him to tell him the good news and he was glad and stuff then we got into an argument again ionno weve been doing that alot lately w/e made me realize that i shouldnt change cause in the end it was worth it but w.e i guess i do look better as a girl and stuff ahh w/e

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-07-30T23:56:00

2006-07-31T04:03:14Z

i hate everyone today...
Extra emotional today for no reason sux ass man
and i wanna stab my dad and feed him his privates

anywho party yesterday sucked ass but i got to see my cheeseball which was nice pretty sad when we dont see each other we fight ionno its retarted oh well start skewl soon which is hella ghey but w/e cant wait to get it over with Ahh cant wait to move to Missouri YAY! oh well not much to say so umm... "Latre"

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-07-26T01:03:00

2006-07-26T05:04:17Z

Two roads... split off from here,
and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear,
Vacation seems far, seems far from here.

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what we call a tragedy.
Come back to me, come back to me, to me.
Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what we call a tragedy.
Come back to me, back to me, to me.

I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene,
I need a break from routine.

I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene,
I need a break from routine.

Two roads... split off from here,
and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so far.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so...far!...

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-07-23T06:04:00

2006-07-23T22:04:56Z

"Himerus And Eros"

You're captivating while evading
All the questions I have for you like,
"What exactly makes you tick?"
When the guilt sets in tell me
What are we going to do?

Your tongue is wet with a top secret passion
I hope I am the cause of it
I'll navigate this unsturdy vessel
Filled with a soft sea of pillows and blankets

And I fight the urge to explore
The vastness of your curves I adore
You know I, I hate you
No, I hate you more
You know I, I love you
No, I love you more

Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
Especially when it comes to you

I've sunken in the quicksands of love
And I don't want you to rescue me
Screw what my supposed friends think
It's obvious they reek of jealousy
It's obvious they reek of jealousy

And I fight the urge to explore
The vastness of your curves I adore
You know I, I hate you
No, I hate you more
You know I, I love you
No, I love you more

Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
Especially when it comes to you

I hope to God I mean a little more then the sounds that escape your tired 4 A.M. lips
And oh-how I wish I meant a little more then a symphony of heavy breathing and the friction of hips

Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
Especially when it comes to you

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-07-20T19:25:00

2006-07-20T23:26:11Z

Well havent updated in days pretty busy with my new lover and all <3 aww hes the bestest =D, i miss my panda beaw

Anywho life couldnt be better things are going good for the first time in a long time which im glad for cant wait to start skewl so i can get it over with and not have to worry about it for a while. Eh nothing new really That Scanner movie sucked huge stoner movie tho i recomend it to all the burnouts out there but i doubt ull even understand lots of the words but w/e well im outty i gotta nap and all lates <3

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-07-16T00:00:00

2006-07-16T04:09:16Z

I should just do What Davy Jones did with his heart, lock it up forever

Rofl how emo is that haha anywho umm i just saw the new Pirates movie it was kewl i guess if ur into bullshit movies anywho not to happy at the moment but w/e it happens rite...

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-07-14T22:44:00

2006-07-15T02:48:02Z

So i just got home from mah babe's house...it was kewlies except for the part where i sucked at guitar hero but thats okie cuase ill still pwn his booty at any other game hehe...aww i miss my cheeseball already but thats okie cause i get to see him again morrow YAY!!! haha im glad im actually happy instead of having to fake it all thanx to u babe <3

Surprised

2006-07-11T23:37:02Z

Omgosh i cant believe me and Bryan are going out he's such a perfect guy i couldnt ask for more i cant believe it took him so long to tell me how he felt but im glad he did so glad i finally find a good b/f since tiago...I miss u bebe cant wait to see you <3

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-07-08T10:06:00

2006-07-08T14:07:09Z

Happiest Ever 'Nuff Said

Lover

2006-06-27T00:27:59Z

Ilu <3 Colin "sh00p" Johansen

Now stop getting grounded and stuff leaving me all alone rofl

='[

2006-06-20T03:03:35Z

I cried today havent cried in a long time but i cried because my feelings go the best of me..I want u to noe that no matter how much u say u can hurt me and even if u do ill still be here waiting for u loving u as much as i do

Rofl my cousins in my room i feel a pillow fight comin on buahahha *Attacks him*

Lala

2006-06-19T04:50:01Z

What can i say i cant complain about anything well a few things but there outta my reach ahh im so happy things are going good best summer ever i have to say i cant wait till this skewl year ends and im done with it then i can do lots and lots of more things like finally go to NJ =D and offcourse the sleepover in tampa rofl <3
I went to the seaquarium today omgosh my inner child was so happy ahah doplphins are prettyfull after we saw the fishies we saw fast n the furious best one yet i have to say i must learn to drift lol watch out for me in the streets haha

With each passing day u surprise me more dont ever leave me again..
I'll never stop thinkin about u till we see each other but till then one can only hope for everything i wish for to come tru <3...You noe who y0u are

By the way JAWBREAKERS PWN UR FACE!

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-06-17T09:06:00

2006-06-17T13:12:26Z

Omgosh its 9 in teh morning and im away...amazing i noe haha but ionno guess iw anted to get up and i glad im did cause now i can talk to my favorist person a continent away <3

So this past week has beeen awesome my cousin came down and its been nothin but fun fun fun all around today were pose to go to the beach then a moobie or some laser tag...no se we'll see i pose anywho im uber happy and uber sad at the same time yeah hard to understand but its possible *sigh* why do the ppl i truly care for have to be so far away i think someone doesnt like me up there *looks up* ehh w.e in due time we'll see q pasa until then all i can do is hope and dream aimlessly </3 Summer skewl is going okie cant wait to get it over even tho im having fun in the process with jazmine and jonathan there haha we act like dorks but thats okie cause we roxors <3

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-06-04T22:05:00

2006-06-06T02:12:12Z

okie so today kenny came over he woke me up the dummy head but im glad he did we had fun and i want out relationship to keep going were its going...

So anywho i went with my mommy to go register for nite skewl i start morrow from 2 to 5 ugh i hate skewl anyho wolf picked me up and we went to some park there and we swinged for a lil watched some kids be dorks and then we sat down to watch some ducks fight and we met the godfather of ducks man that duck was big anywho we went back to the swings and i noticed wolf couldnt swing well not that he couldnt he just didnt noe how and i wasnt the only one that noticed some lil girl next to us was like omg u cant swing my 4 year old cousin could swing and im like oh wolf got PWNED! hahaha poor wolf he wanted to leave after that anywho so we went to game stop and it started to rain so we got wet going in and out of it later we went to wendy's and he ordered and what not and u wont believe what wolf ordered okie okie here it goes well a biggie combo with that burger with 3 meats then he ordered 2 jr bacon burgers and an extra order or chicken nuggets and he ate ALL OF IT!! except one jr burger cause he said the bread was old the lady at the counter was like oh he has ur order im like no thats all for him and shes like oh man can he eat im like yep ^.^ anywho we ate and talked for a lil then he dropped me off home i had a good time im glad i got to spend some time with him its been a while <3

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-05-31T00:46:00

2006-05-31T04:47:36Z

I am happy yay ^_^

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-05-28T23:48:00

2006-05-29T03:53:46Z

I dont get it i mean i had such a great day and all i wanted to do was get home and stay happy but i talked to wolf and im sad mad fucking jeez so i tell him what i finally have to tell him and he doesnt say shit he just says blame everything on me blah blah and i start talking again and the next thing i noe he leaves thanx alot talk about ur great best freind ehh so hes been having fun with his freind going out more all that jazz so i realized were better off makin this permanent the friend thing but no im starting to wonder if we can even get thru that honestly i dont noe i still think it would have been better if he would have never picked on me that day at LAN hopefully Gabriel picks me up tommorow and cheers me up before he leaves *sigh*

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-05-28T18:54:00

2006-05-29T02:02:15Z

Today was great i needed today its been the crappiest year of my life well with a few exceptions but today reminded me why i always smile

My dad said that we were gonna go and watch a movie so i get ready blah blah when i hear the door bell ring and u wont believe who it was it was Gabriel omg i freaked and i hugged him forever hahaha i havent seen him since new years he brought one of my favorite flowers the sunflower oh it was so cute anywho he said he was in the neighborhood and stopped by to say hi and to see if i was busy and i looked at him weird and hes like what! and i said when am i ever busy lol we sorta always go at it remarks and jokes and things.

I finished getting dressed and he took me out to eat and then we talked and he was telling me about Iraq and stuff and how he missed all of us and he cant wait to visit again in December...w/e we left and we went to block buster and got the Memoirs of Geisha and went to my house to watch it with my sister and stuff oh that movie is so cute/saddish i would have cried but gabriel just had to be there and make fun of every single lil thing not to mention HOW I WALKED ROFL thanx anywho im so glad he came to my rescue and tommorow we might go to Boomers Yayness!!!! but maybe not cause his sister hates me blah blah long story when we were going out. anywho i cant wait till tommorow and i cant wait till December sad enuff he has to leave on thursday to Virginia again * major tears * ill miss him so till he comes back *sigh* Distance sux!!!! oh well c ya laters

Good and Bad Memories

2006-05-26T00:48:52Z

I love this song because its simple and it gets the point across and it reminds me that life can be good with someone u love or loved

"Dangerously In Love 2"

I love you... I love you... I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the seed
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and mixed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-05-24T06:56:00

2006-05-24T23:10:32Z

i miss u so much
i miss cuddling with ur foot
i miss u holding me. and kissing my forehead. and kissing me on your bed. and you sleeping on my stomach. and throwing pillows at me cause i wont let u watch Star Wars *Teehee*
i miss ur sad lil puppy face and how u always say stop when i tickle u and the lil mad face after i miss the way ur underwear shows when u walk around in those bummy pants and how u always attacked me with ur hair
i miss our hour long talks on the fone and the way u say i love u and good nite
i miss how u always try to make my faces even tho u look funny =D
i even miss when we argue and make up afterwards
This friendship thing is killing me and i noe its for the best but at least u noe i miss every lil detail about u and i cant wait to share that again till that day ill just be missing u I Love u Danny.

mykind0fperfect @ 2006-05-23T07:58:00

2006-05-24T00:07:53Z

okie well lets start of with the weekend

*Saturday*
I went to main as usual and like the pathetic person i am stil call and expected wolf to come * sigh * w/e so then i see my ex boyfreind tiago and i go up to him to say hi blah blah he says he has bars if i wanted i bought 3 and a 20 w/e we went to anti and we did our thing and there was some jack daniels so i said ahh why not and i took one sip and it was the greatest feeling ever we went back to main and i went to the ddr place and i saw this girl so i go up to her and i ask her out :: keep in mind that i am out of it:: and she said yeah and im like no but im serious and she says me too so im like sweet....oops i forgot yeah me and wolf decided to be freinds and that is going iffy rite now we still need a reminder that were freinds every now and then but its fine alrite back to the story...

*Monday*
I was on the bus talking away like usual to julian and i say F*ck it so i take a bar i get to skewl cross the street and wait the usual 10- 15 min for ppl to get there by the time alex gets there in his skateboard the bar starts kicking in and me like an idiot says oh let me see if i can ride straight and boom i fall and there goes my ankle but this isnt new to me considering its my 3rd time spraining an ankle w/e i get up and everyone comes and luckily one of our friend brings a bike so im on the bike all day and the day ends we all go home....

*Today*
I wake up at 8 to mexico knocking on my door needing chile's number *our dealer* but i didnt have it suprisingly enuff kitty had a car w/e i paid no attention to it so then my sister says here's a 20 go and have fun so i call them back they pick me up and we go to kitty's house and we have fun there we play some mario game there then i come home to sleep and here we are now...

i really must say that well drugs are great but its time i kick them to the curb i mean bars wow but it sux when u can remember anything the next day so im staying sober till the end of my senior year and yes this time its for real no trick plus wolf will tell my dad if i break the promise aww he cares how cute well yeah thats about it late <3